Wednesday, December 17, 2008

First Mammogram memories and more

I had a 9:30 am appt. to have my first mammogram yesterday. I was not excited at all. I am very big busted for those who don't know me well. For those who do know me, you can stop saying outloud "and that is an understatement!" I know who you are!!!!! Anyway, I found a local hospital that has a digital machine, so I made the appt. Ping was supposed to be in school so I could go over to the appt. alone. Well school has been cancelled all week so far! Yesterday was no different! So off to the mammogram we went. I brought crayons and a coloring book and snacks to keep Ping entertained. They also have a TV there and they put the cartoons on for her. This was only supposed to be 15 minutes long, so the receptionist said she would be more than happy to watch Ping. I didn't have a choice in the matter. I couldn't take her in with me. Too much radiation! So in I went. It was a nice room. There was a lot of pink breast cancer stuff which I understood, but only increased my never ending anxiety. Even though studies have shown that it doesn't matter if you are big or small breasted, I have always felt that the bigger you are, the more trouble you can get yourself into! So I sat down and began to speak with Bobby Jo, my boob tech! She was a sweetie. She has adopted two girls from DSF. She has a father that is ill and in the hospital. She was without power like us, etc. So we bonded. You might as well like the person that is going to literally be handling your boobs for awhile, right? So I stepped up to the machine and she began. She told me it was going to take some time to do this as we had to do it in sections and for each one. Yippee, the excitement was mounting! So she moved me all around and it was slightly as much fun as getting a pap smear! I even told her so. She said "but you can't joke around with your doctor like we can, right? RIGHT! I told her at least pap smears were quick. This was taking forever! DAMN BOOBAGE! We laughed and joked and shared our histories. She really was someone I bonded too immediately! As far as mammograms go, this one was going fairly well. That was until we had to get the last shot. She wanted a cleavage shot. So I said to her "is this for your mantle????" Of course I was just joking. What else can you do. She just laughed and walked back to the computer. However she never got to the computer. She tripped on my johnny, also called a hospital gown. She fell flat on her face. It was awful. She turned over and was crying and hysterical. I was stuck in the machine and wasn't sure if I should move. Another nurse heard and came running in. Then another one did. The nurse was snippy with me. She told me to get my gown on and to tie it. She then walked away to call the ER which was next door. I removed myself and walked over to Bobby Jo and sat down and held her hand. All I could do was try to keep her calm. I told her that this whole thing was a ploy to escape early from work and to go Christmas shopping. I told her that she met her quota with my boobs and so her day was done. I told her that I was dissapointed that she never told me how memorable my first mammogram would be. She told me that she was so happy to meet me. She told the other nurse that she made my day and she hadn't laughed that hard in awhile. I was glad she felt some level of comfort. Well I got up as 10 or so people appeared with a back board. I went to the waiting room. Meanwhile, it's been an hour and Ping is still in the other room. I started to cry. I couldn't help it. I felt so awful that she was hurt, that she tripped on my gown, that she had enough on her plate and this wasn't needed, etc. Well the original snippy nurse came and got me and looked over my slides. She said I didn't need anymore taken. I told her about the cleavage shot, but she said she didn't feel it was needed and she hugged me because she could see I was crying. I think she was just really stressed that her friend was hurt. Well I scurried to get dressed and went to get Ping. I apologized profusely for being so delayed. The woman said that Ping behaved beautifully and she enjoyed watching her. Ping watched the TV and colored and ate her fishies! So the two of us went over to the ER. I wanted to check on Bobby Jo. They let me see her for 30 seconds. I just said that I hoped she would be okay and she said whe was sorry this all happened. We left. I cried all the way home. I felt so awful. Talk about emotional.

I gave Ping lunch and did a few things around here. About an hour after being home, Bobby Jo called to tell me she had been released and she was going to be fine. She said she knew I was upset and worried and mostly she wanted to say thank you for being so kind to sit and hold her hand and keep her company and joking, etc. I told her she was most welcome and I would see her in a year if my results were all good for this year! It takes 2 weeks or so to find out. However, at first sight, they seemed good. THANK YOU!!!!!!!

After talking to Bobby Jo, I grabbed my naked kissing ball and headed with Ping to Michaels. I bought a nice kissing ball for Bill's mom. It's all decorated. The one I bought my parents was nekkid! The woman at Michaels was wonderful!!!! We added a gorgeous bow and tail and some decorations. All in a aqua/teal color. I will take some pictures!!!! It came out beautifully and I am so thrilled.

Later that evening, when Bill came home, we headed off to Millis. The owner of a few car dealerships in that area has a huge home and puts out a large light display. It's free to the public. We went a few years ago. The wait was very long. So we went on a Tuesday night so it wouldn't take long. Of course Ping was asleep 10 minutes after we left. Once we got to the lights, we pulled over, woke her up and put her in the front seat with me. You go through the lights literally by rolling occasionally, so she was more than safe. It's single file too! After we were done, we plopped her back into her car seat. She wasn't happy. Oh well! Then we had dinner at some local Italian place we have never been too before. We were starving and it was late!!!!!!! She was not a happy camper because she was so tired. If she has school today, we wouldn't have gone. I knew she could sleep in if she wanted to though!

Needless to say it was a long day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today started off with some difficulty as well, but not like yesterday. Today was my fault!!!!! There was no school or swimming to be had, so I slept in! After all, my girl knows how to entertain herself and not get into trouble. Yeah, right!!!!!! She sat next to me for a long time just playing with puzzles. Another time I asked her what she was doing and she was just reading books. So she was calm and happy and entertained, or so I thought!!!!! I got up and walked to her room and found the door closed. Odd, because she never closes the door. IT WAS LOCKED! I thought maybe she was in there reading. She was not. She was downstairs, using the step stool to get into grammy's fridge to get herself some juice! She came wondering upstairs just as I was about to go survey the scene. The chick comes upstairs and asks me to unscrew the top off of her Chinese juice bag drink. I thought I was going to die when I saw her. She had on a pretty top, but under that she had a top with a bow on it and then 2 pajama tops. Under that was a tee shirt of Daddy's!!!! Under the tee was a pair of polka dotted pajama leggings. She was quite the sight!!!! Meanwhile she is oblivious as to how funny she looks. So I help her get undressed and fold the clothes. I then go downstairs in search of a door unlock device!!! I found a paper clip, opened it up and prayed it would work. So the two of us headed upstairs to unlock the door. It worked. Clearly this was a McGuyver move on my behalf. I was so proud of myself. Then I opened the door. Clearly I slept through a gigantic huricane!!!! Every single book she had in her bookcase is scattered on the floor. It's not even safe to walk in her room. In the corner where her table and 4 chairs are, there is a party going on. Ladybug is sitting on the pink princess stool. The big pink Little Pony is sitting on a chair. Mikey and Minnie each have a chair as well. The are looking at a ton of stickers on pages of a book that fell apart. She didn't destroy it, it was already separated from it's binding! A sticker party. Then I notice two of her stained glass butterflies were on the floor. One was broken. I am sure they fell down due to the cold.

I contemplated crawling back into bed! However, I didn't. I showered, made the bed, neatened up all of the upstairs rooms, got her dressed and then attacked her bedroom. It's all clean now. It's my fault. I shouldn't have been sleeping!

The downstairs was in good shape. I gave Ping some lunch and started tackling all of these outstanding projects. The minute Bill came home, I attacked him so he could help me:) Spread the love, right? I wanted to hang all new photos in the hallway. I finally got them done!!!!! Wanted to clean the cats water fountain. I sewed a pom pom on Ping's coat. It came off one day. So very Martha Stewart of me, no? I never sewed until my mom passed and I became a stay at home mom. I told Bill this position is obviously being grown into! LOL. We finished the sad looking gingerbread house. Bill went on a call. I fed Ping dinner. Now the two of them are reading books. Ping has school tomorrow! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have two bracelets I need to make tonight. One has to go in the mail tomorrow! A lot got accomplished and I am thrilled. I have more stuff to do tomorrow, but I do feel like I have had a semi-useful day!!!!!! Well I have to head off to make the bracelets.

I also got a jury notification tonight. I feel like they pick me all the time!!!!! It's all good. I don't mind.

Below are some pics of the lights we went to see last night!!!!!!

Mama Out!!!!



Ferris wheel.


All little stations depicting different scenes of Christmas.


Fancy That! said...

wait a second, you sewed?

Christina said...

What a day! I'm so proud of you for going. :)

Love the display of lights photos. We have one here, but it must be so much fun to take a little one!