We got a call from our neighbor at 7:45 am today. Her oldest daughter saw a cat on the side of the road on her way to work. She called her mom to tell her and her mom called us. Bill and I threw clothes on and our neighbor came to get us. Her youngest daughter watched Ping and we drove down the street. It was Lily. She had been hit. I was very afraid this would happen as I saw her two days ago and she was running scared. I have been so concerned that she would get scared and not look where she was going. I have been driving all around every day, just to make sure.So we picked Lily up, wrapped her in a towel, wrote a card to her, put her favorite toy between her paws and buried her on our property.
I have been hysterically crying since. I wish I wasn't. I wish I could move on so easily as others do when they have lost a pet. I love them much, much too deep. They are family to me. I would do anything for them. She didn't deserve this fate. She wasn't even 4 years old. We have indoor kitties so this will never happen to them. I hope that if there is truly such a place called heaven, she is there with my mom and dad.
I truly feel like this is our fault. We didn't protect her. We are the ones that agreed to love and protect her. We failed miserably. I don't really get this thing called life. Why has so much been taken from so many? Some people seem to truly drift through life without much heartache while others have to face it continuously. I really don't get it.
Now is not a time to ponder that stuff. It is a time to miss our baby and we will forever. We love you sweetie. I hope you are prancing around and loving life.
6 comments:
Wishing you peace. I know you will miss your baby. Pets are such a huge part of our lives.
"Way down deep, we're all motivated by the same urges. Cats have the courage to live by them."
~Jim Davis, creator of Garfield
Hugs to you, friend.
Jill,
I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Lily. My heart goes out to you.
(((HUGS)))
Tammy
I'm so sorry. We've lost multiple cats to cars, so we now only have indoor cats, as well. I know it hurts awfully to lose a pet. I cried for a long time with the majority of pets we've lost. I'm fully convinced that there is a pet heaven. Lily will be there waiting for you when you get there. And she'll say "it's okay, Mom. It was my time. I know it hurt, but I've been okay." I'm sure Lily doesn't fault you at all.
Hugs,
Monica
I really hope there is a rainbow bridge or pet heaven or someplace we will meet up with our loved ones. Surely someone loved so much has to go on, right?
My heart aches for you and Bill. I know you feel guilty but you can't take the call of the wild out of your cat. They don't understand that the lack of freedom equals protection.
Try to think about the good life that Lily had and how much she enjoyed being your baby. You are a good furmommy.
It won't be easy. I'm still mourning the loss of my dog and it's been a couple of months already. People who don't think pets are family are full of poop! How can we not become attached and mourn their loss???
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